My Mind and character have changed.
 

As i discovered Pua just two months ago when a guy that moved in next door to me mentioned the game which i read five years ago but failed at that time as i was not ready then.

We instantly hit it off he even wears the same style of clothes as me i guess it is fate that we met he told me his sexual history which is impressive for his age and the birds he has shagged.

Then he put swing cats audio which is awesome and mystery audio and ross jeffries speed suduction which is fucking excellent the hypnois the girls love and by talking they have multible orgasms fuck i felt like a guro a sex god right now.

As i have a steady gf she is a character a bit crazy but i like the crazies as im mad my self.

But my problem is i keep waking up at 5am this worries me as my brain has changed by listening to the audio stuff plus the books and dvds i got .

I feel that i have lost the tranquility of mind that i had before which maybe my sub concious mind has developed i feel that im pushing my self to hard and with so many approaches i been doing this not to get numbers its more about building great tecnique .

As to pull the nines my game is not quite there i know body language is masssively important and to have total i dont give a fuck you hot woman attitude which i what i want to obtain that level.

My question to you guys is have you found that your peace of mind gone ?

Also if you have a gf has it effected your motivation to get more pussy?

My mind feels so different and my confidence has gone up big time probaly thats my ego but self esteem i feel i need to build on that as sometimes i feel lost and confused .

What is the meaning of life and that one day im gonna old decript and fuck die sorry i feel i need to get this off my chest.

Any tips on this would be apprecaited and no wise cracks or i grab you by the puppy snatch and shot you down!.

did u hold his hand?

also ignorance is bliss so they say

Yes. Take a week of sarging.

Yes, I'm more motivated.

Fuck knows. Forget it all and live for the moment.

I was reading some Shunryu Suzuki's 'Zen Mind, Beginners Mind' last night and read something that I think kinda relates to your post. The quotes paraphrased.

I think if you converse with women just for the sake of conversing with women rather than to attain some invisible goal or level you might find more peace of mind.

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yeah theres a price to pay with pua.

With Ross Jeffries, your morality. With the guys on that PUA Summit/convention, IQ points. With MM, your personality.