Experiment to understand the female mind, gone wrong
 

Your opinions are much appreciated guys, I need the puaforums equivalent of a reality check. I think ive taken my experiment too far and now im confused

It’s a complicated situation so the details are long, but ive tried to keep it to the point.

- Been in grad classes with a HB10 for a year (we’re in our 30’s). never seriously gamed her since she is socially awkward, insecure and language is an issue, and I had a full roster of ladies in rotation so didn’t want to climb uphill

- After a few months she initiated flirtation. We were building sexual connection slowly but then i fucked it up
- One night at a bar she was kissing, feeling my chest, arms, waist, talking dirty. I hadn’t slept in 2 days so don’t remember what I said but it triggered ASD. Was too mentally impaired to recover from it. So ended the night as if nothing happened
- Next day it was awkward and she was avoiding me, wouldn’t let me regain the comfort level. Thought it was all over, so I backed off to friend level interaction, gamed other girls and she saw me take one home


- But two days later her friend (who I had barely ever spoken to ) tells me that “once ive shown my intention i should follow through if I want success”. Was clear that this was an indirect message. The conversation also confirmed no LTR intentions/emotions on either side

- I spoke to the HB10 an hour later and she was back to the same level as the night before the bar incident. logistically I couldnt isolate her so one-on-one interaction was limited so couldn’t escalate. within an hour she was again avoiding me and when I tried to talk to her she asked me to leave her alone. The avoidance was heavy so I backed off
- we have barely spoken after that.
- I kept basic contact going, short small talk

- The situation was frankly not worth the effort and I should have walked away here. But since I had the channel open with the friend, I decided to use this as an experiment to study the female mind


- Told the friend - I didn’t understand what went wrong, but that I keep things simple so im not going to overthink it & I totally understand if she isn’t comfortable and needs space. given how weird things are im not going to pursue her and risk making her feel worse. Also that in general I don’t pursue women because its not fun for me, so if things don’t work out too bad but no regrets
- Since then both girls had been looking towards me in class with high frequency, all day
- I completely ignored this, only caught it from peripheral vision. went about my business like nothing had happened. gamed girls
- Mentally I had walked away from the situation, so there was nothing to lose.

- After a few days of this I told the friend that I can see them looking at me. she denied, said I was imagining it. I smiled and said in case im not, if anyone wanted to say anything or ask me anything they can talk to me freely. Otherwise its fine, I have no problem with anyone looking at me. later that day small talked the HB10 for two mins, after 2 days of freeze out. Only got 1 word responses
- went back to flirting with girls in class, hitting on girls in bars, living my regular alpha life

Now here is where it gets more weird…

- I thought my calling her out would make the HB10 either pissed off, or super conscious. There was nothing to lose so I didn’t care. Def didn’t expect her to continue looking at me
- The friend ignores me, but now instead of the earlier quick glances from the HB10, she stares and holds eye contact. She makes intentional attempts to get near me.
- One night we were at a bar. She was a little drunk. Every girl from the class I spoke to/danced with, the HB10 literally pulled away from me and bear hugged, girls she had never spoken to before.
- when shes out with other people she seems miserable (people have commented). Reserved, and quiet. When im in the room, she’s still quiet but her attention is completely on me. if I clear my throat she turns and looks.



I should have just walked away long back but couldn’t resist experimenting. After all, learning is key. But now ive confused myself. And possibly been unintentionally playing mind games with her, which would be fucked up

Our last class together is in a month, we will never see each other again (she flies in for our classes).


It would be easy to read her behavior as interest in me but I suspect its more likely that my lack of contact and living a full life, gaming other women etc, is making her wonder if im still interested. Like every HB10 she is addicted to being desired and cant stand not knowing if I still desire her. She is out of frame , and its making her feel insecure and off balance, and running out of time is accelerating her reactions.


Im guessing she is trying to get my attention to reel me in, pursue her again, so she can turn the tables on me, reject me, and regain her worth/self confidence etc.

But my raging sexual desire for her after this fucked up situation is not letting me ignore that tiny possibility that she just wants to fuck to get this tension out of her system.


Your advice and perspective would really help here guys. thanks