Achieving 30 lays by the age of 30
 

Hi guys, I'm 28 1/2 years old and I need to learn to pickup chicks from day game urgently.

This is going to be a long post as I need to explain 12 years of history for it to make sense.

Somehow I found out through day gaming through Youtube and since then have been fascinated by the idea.

I say day game because I've never "been out" at night as I don't want to join in the distasteful rat race of competing with other males who are high on alcohol, testosterone and misplaced bravado.

That was my view at 18 anyway, needless to say I was insecure about my masculinity back then.

Unfortunately, this slightly arrogant view has left me high and dry when it comes to picking up chicks.

Although I still do kinda feel like that, I'm a day time person and I'm not going to put my health on the line for women.

From the age of 13-25 I'd never even touched a woman's naked breast. From 25 on wards and sick of no female contact I must admit I've had sexual and oral intercourse with 14 prostitutes. Which averages about 1/2 hour with a woman every 4 months over the last few years.

There are reasons for this which I'll explain below.

Firstly, I went to a special needs autistic boarding school, although I am far from severely autistic. I was diagnosed with something called "Asperger's syndrome" which I believe might have been a mistake now as a lot of my "symptoms" actually fit more closely with social anxiety.

The upshot of this is that when I left the school at age 16 in 2006 desperate for sex.

This one chavy girl said she was 16 and would suck me off but then said she was actually 15 and tried to make me feel bad about it and called me a pedo and her mates then tried to beat me up and make me feel bad which affected my trust in women somewhat.

But mainly I thought "being myself" was wrong and something that had to be suppressed, so I never expressed myself with the ladies for fear of my behaviour being seen as a result of my "condition".

I went to the local youth club and had a few bad experiences which I believed was as a result of my "condition" again, but with hindsight I realise I was just being bullied/ridiculed because I was a kid then essentially just appeared from nowhere instead of attending a local school. The other youths all seemed to know each other from school but I had just "appeared".

There was this really pretty girl I was in love with and attended the youth club for 2 1/4 years and made an attempt to approach her in 2008 but someone interrupted me and I didn't want anyone to witness the approach in case it went wrong.

She was also 2 years younger than me and I was afraid that I might get seen as a pedo again and beaten up by the chavs.

I was extremely "in my head" my whole youth between 2005-2015, hunched over the computer, lights off, on internet forums, burying myself in video games, designing levels for games and basically suppressing my burning desire for female contact. Sometimes I would be masturbating up to 7 times a day. Extremely unhealthy.

I was convinced women where just "not for me" and everybody else, no matter how ugly they were could get women but I just wasn't meant to.

I went through self pity, feeling entitled and wondering why it never happened for me.

People told me that I would get a girlfriend, but it just wasn't happening.

During uni and my loneliest days ever between 2011-12 I also got addicted to female autopsy videos as they turned me on more than any porn ever could. Just seeing a naked woman's body being cut up was sheer ecstasy to me for some reason.

Those were my darkest days actually. I'd gone beyond desperation into complete madness. I also worried that I might actually be a paedophile for some crazy reason which was a fear that lasted throughout my whole early 20s.

My self esteem was in the gutter. I couldn't even look people in the face for the fear that they might see the turmoil going on in my head.

Basically only "living" in an unapologetic way since 2016 when I started riding motorcycles.

So I have only started living my life from my mid 20s onwards, now I am in my late 20s I want to live like I am in my late teens instead.

I am particularly interested in girls aged 18-22 as I know this is the age group that I did not take advantage of when I was in it and I won't have long until I will look very suspect indeed for approaching women of that age.

My goal is to have sex with 30 different women by the age of 30 which is 18 months time. Bear in mind I'm starting from 0 as prostitutes don't count.

It is going to be a massive learning curve.

I am currently at the level where going up to a chick, paying a compliment is stressful and I often eject after a few words and can't seem to get them to hook.

I tried online dating last year and got nowhere with it, I just can't take it seriously, I'd rather live in the moment anyway and take the risk to get the reward.

So yeah, 30 by 30, achievable or fantasy?

Fantasy, considering the fact you're 28.5 and have very, very little experience in even talking to women. It's like me asking is it possible for me to be a millionaire by the end of next year. Impossible unless my lotto numbers come up.

You'd be better setting smaller, achievable goals, rather than obscenely unattainable ones. For example, getting to the point of talking to a girl comfortably enough to ask for her number.

Good point dan300.

They are baby steps and are necessary.

No I'm not a serial killer, I was just depressed and lacked real life female contact.

But it does turn me on a bit, I have to say.

But I wouldn't wish harm on a woman, it's just when there has been a tragedy and the body is still intact, you might as well...you know:trampoline:

At the moment it's like there is a timer that goes off as soon as I pay the compliment and I have to get out of there before the times up

All I have to go off is what you've written so far on the forum, but to me it seems like there is more going on with you than simple social anxiety. I hope you are still involved in some proven therapeutic process.


Peace,

kowalski

I have seeked counselling and may well be taking that up.

I think in a lot of ways what is going on is due to 12 years of isolation.

I know I'll never be 18 again and it's a reality that has hit me quite hard.

I still can't believe it was 10 years ago. Like what was I doing that whole time!?

Jobs never came my way, part time crappy supermarket jobs, I might as well have not gone to uni, complete waste of life.

There are a lot of things mixed up making me feel how I do.

I feel like I could have been and done much more in life.

A lot of people my age are really settling down and I've no interest in that.

I'm nearly 30 and I've only had sex 17 times since I was 25 FFS.

I just want to have abundance and regular sex and blowjobs for a few years.

I want to feel a woman's saliva on my cock on a regular basis.

I've had enough of wanking off to a screen, in fact that defines my whole "sex life" up until I gave up waiting and started with prostitutes.

I want to change my whole life around. I just want a woman that I can bang until I'm satisfied instead of only being allowed to cum once.

You are definitely weird in a bad way, in a potential menace to yourself and others way, and you definitely need help to stop being weird before you do anything else.


Peace,

kowalski

What do you base this on?

I am not going anywhere so you'd better buck up your ideas son...

Ten years ago, ironically, I was a lot more normal.

10 years of isolation has had it's effect, granted.

But if someone said that to me 10 years ago, I'd have taken it to heart, backed down and gone back into my shell. Although ironically 10 years ago I had not watched any autopsy videos, so I didn't really have anything to feel bad about.

I don't give a fuck if people judge me now.

I just come out swinging and eliminate dead weights slowing me down.

Don't know how to back down only hold my ground.

I'll be a potential menace to you, definitely:mad:

I already stated what I'm basing it on.


Peace,

kowalski

My god you think you are so clever:mad:

You're just a bully

I know I'm clever. Since reaching a reasonable level of maturity I've almost always been the cleverest person in any given room I've entered.

You though... you need serious professional help. Anyone here with integrity will tell you the same.


Peace,

kowalski

Condescending, that's what you are.

You hide behind a screen from Italy like a coward whilst I live my life one cold approach at a time.

I'll give you a reason to get professional help motherfucker...

Professional medical help that is after I've viciously assaulted you.

You just keep proving my point one retarded word at a time.


Peace,

kowalski

How have you been received on other forums? Assuming you've expressed all the same things about yourself, your feelings and your future projections that you have to us.

Empty threats from behind a computer screen aren't going to get you anywhere. And you won't out-smart Kowalski (luckily I'm only second in the world to him).

You said you were normal 10 years ago, so perhaps you could get some of that normality back. Yes professional help might help. You said you'll "maybe" seek that help, but don't maybe seek it, just do it. You can get free counselling in most places there's always professional organisations and charities willing to assist people in despair etc etc. People drag themselves out of the gutter all the time and make their way back in life. There's also some who have had it worse than you - there's literally a 40 year old virgin somewhere right now yet at least you've banged a bunch of hookers. You could be hit by a bus tomorrow so slow down and stop illustrating such worrying traits.

I have been banned from most forums that I show my true self on. I refuse to back down now, that's why. With my mindset I will go far, I am persistent and determined, I always bounce back through sheer bloody mindedness.

I have a lot of unfocused aggression now as a result of my experience over the past 10-12 years so I lash out easily at the slightest hint of hostility.

Going back through the old threads I see a lot of egotism and bullying on this forum, so I know the likes of Kowalski and others are not innocent and should not be allowed to get away with these personal attacks.

I've gone nearly 30 years without harming anyone, what gives him the right to call me a potential menace to others!?

I've been harmed myself a few times, 10-12 years ago when I was weak.

Okay, I overreacted, he was trying to help, but I've seen his egotism in old threads and people like him that throw their weight around are a red rag to a bull for me.

Yes I could die quite easily and that is why I am desperate to have as much casual sex as possible to make up for the years I went without.

I spent my whole youth "inside my head" so to speak, occasionally stepping outside, being ridiculed by other youths and then going back in to my head.

By my early 20s the pattern was set, despite being at uni from 2010-2012 where I could have day gamed successfully.

By saying I was normal 10 years ago, I meant that I hadn't got into the autopsy videos and masturbating to them, which was something that happened during my time at uni and the worst of my isolation.

Before that, in 2008 I was "normal" in the sense that I was a blank slate, without a dark past. I used to see these young pretty girls and get the same sense of panic that I get now.

I had no social circle in 2008, no job, just college and EMA for survival.

I'd been out of the special needs school over 2 years at that point but I still wasn't sure if it was reality or whether I was still there, heavily sedated and in a straight jacket.

So I spent most of that time in my room, not getting the opportunity to talk to anyone for days.

I remember actually, on several occasions there were girls that said "hi" to me, but I just tried to get out of the situation before I could embarrass myself.

I distinctly remember walking down the road during my first few weeks at college in September 2007 and a pair of girls on the other side of the road waiting at the bus stop shouted "Hi" to me and I said Hi back but didn't know what else to do.

Also I didn't trust them in case they were trying to ridicule me.

That was one vivid memory, I have a few others, they are knocking that campus down now, I really miss those days:cry:

You've only not done any fucked up shit yet because you're a pussy.


Peace,

kowalski

K don't be saying that kind of thing, i thought you were smart.

OP, with your mindset you will go nowhere. You need to stop thinking about what you didn't get in the past and start focusing on making yourself better.

Dan, read what he's wrote. He's either totally unhinged (see: everything he has written so far) or trolling (see: he said I live in Italy even though it says on the right side of the screen next to every comment where I live). Whichever it is, he's a pathetic loser. No doubt.

Chatting about mindset and focus is not the way to go.

Also, when someone who is smart has a different answer to the same question the correct, intelligent response is not to think "oh, guess he's not smart". The correct, intelligent response is to think "Damn, that guy is super smart and he thinks differently than me. I should find out why he thinks the way he does. Maybe he's just I'll informed on this topic or maybe he knows something I don't".

If not trolling, this guy is a potential menace and the only thing that has prevented him from becoming an actual menace is lack of balls.


Peace,

kowalski

Stop fucking saying this out loud then! I don't want this cunt to go kill some random wee lassie.

If you believe what we say to this guy could have an effect, then start treating him like he's potentially dangerous rather than encouraging him to go chat to girls, you idiot.

There's no place for that shit around here. Better that he fucks off with his tail between his legs and there's a clear record that we instantly notice and don't tolerate that shit even for a second than that he settles in and you all advise him how to trick people into not noticing that he's a potential menace.


Peace,

kowalski

No place for what you son of a fucking whore?

You mean you don't like being put in your place!?

Come to England and I'll see you face to face.

I DARE you bitch.

I'll fucking flatten you.

don't call me a cunt you protestant cunt

Two bullies ganging up on one guy yeah that's fair isn't it, JUST LIKE BACK AT THE YOUTH CLUB!!!


Bullies are cowards, you two are FUCKING COWARDS

Lol.


Peace,

kowalski

You think you're so cool putting peace after every message you twat

You've awoken the beast in me and I will pursue you until you are dead. DEAD.

Do you hear me you little bitch?

http://oi67.tinypic.com/2qi93zq.jpg


Peace,

kowalski

Don't call me a protestant cunt you cunt.

Ps. Please don't kill anyone.

Mike insulting people and threatening vicious assault isn't going to win you any friends and it definitely isn't going to get you the help you need.

K is intelligent and somebody worth listening to. I trust him because he has nothing to win or lose by calling it how he sees it. Sometimes I find him a little too direct for my sensibilities, but he has sound logic and a point of view worth considering.

Let's look at one of your posts
Just from this thread here you admit to suppressing feelings, self-esteem issues, having a rather strange fetish and a strange penchant for girls who are quite young physically.
That said I applaud your resolve to avoid under age girls despite you having a strange pre-occupation with them.

I agree with K in that you should seek some professional help to overcome anything you have suppressed and repressed and for your own mental health.

Then start from the bottom up - looking at your posts and from your own admission of having Asperger's, you struggle with social queues and norms such as the lady in the shop from your other post.
Make friends and get used to social environments and settings.

Where did I say that? I think you've miss interpreted my posts somewhere:eek:

The lady in the shop incident wasn't anything to do me with struggling to recognise a situation at all.

I was pushing my comfort zone, which is what cold approach is about.

Watch this video from Tom Torero to explain why I specifically targeted that situation



I went "where the fear was" which is exactly what Tom says to do.

Tom Terrero is a virgin who admitted faking video footage. Every single person who has joined this forum and said good things about Tom Terrero had never pulled a girl in their life... just like you.


Peace,

kowalski

Sounds like you have approach anxiety in stressful situations

Lol. This tit just learned about "frame control" 20 years too late.
Good luck with that, kiddo.


Peace,

kowalski

I don't recall having seen him admit being completely exposed. I thought he'd just totally ignored it until it blew over and never acknowledged it.

Mike, I'm not trying to argue or catch you out just help.

For me I was struggling to have success with girls because I was dragging a lot of issues from my teenage years with me, a mixture of family problems, moving across the country, self-esteem issues and bullying. This effected me in all aspects of my life but especially with girls.

I really recommend taking time to work on you and your self esteem and getting social, I wish I had done this rather than trying to remember canned lines as when I finally did it, everything else started to fall into place.

I still have a way to come

I'm not the librarian of your ability to remember stuff, Dan. Look it up. He got caught and admitted it and apologised. You selectively forgot that because you like him.

I see the difference between fake and authentic as clearly as you see the difference between blue and red.


Peace,

kowalski

I wasn't saying he didn't do it, just that I never seen that particular video.

I did like him, back in 2014 before he was caught doing fake videos and I was out doing real-life, and sometimes quite bold approaches (which as it happens, you actually said yourself).