Brewing but not mixing
 

My inner game is lax, I think it's lacking core substance. It feels like a cauldron of different perceptions, beliefs, realisations, goals brewing but not mixing, not fully congruent; like oil in water.

Recently I'm giving this a lot of focus, even when I'm out during the day. A lot of the beliefs I had prior to becoming interested in RSD and this community were poor and untrue. Such things as appearance, money, stature, etc...
When I go out I dress simple; jacket/jumper and jeans, clean and groomed. I notice girls staring at me, groups of girls looking, smiling and then talking in their group whilst some spouts of eye contact. Even 1 of my mates passing by said "wow dude you're getting some serious attention from the hot girls over there".

This has been making me think. If I'm getting this from girls now then when I sort out my inner game it should only get better.
At first I thought it was purely confidence I was lacking but after going into a room of 12 people and talking to every single person within 2 hours and even light flirting with 3 girls; 2 have boyfriends, oupps :P I soon realised that confidence wasn't my biggest issue. My inner game is the major issue.
I want to sort this out and have already started taking steps towards it, nova thanks man he contacted me today... and Improv, which is going to be a challenge for me personally and hell I'm sure I'll feel the need to back out of going before next thursday but I won't back out; gotta break through the comfort zone.

*** ADDED SIDE NOTE ***

I'm having trouble approaching groups of girls during the day, I'm kinda put off when I see them looking at me, which is really stupid. Groups is an aspect that I'm finding hard to overcome.
If a group is standing next to me and talking, I will approach by simply adding to their conversation. But in any other scenario I back out of approaching and honestly I'm not sure why.

Any help with that guys?

You need to get more experiences by approaching. It's all well and good theorising and watching vids, but like Tyler always said, you gotta get out there and get involved, and that doesn't just mean once in a blue moon. It will take months and years to start seeing improvements, but if you put your mind to it then you will see results.

A huge realisation for me has been the very reason I was and still am afraid to approach beautiful girls, and even express myself freely when around them. The very reason I act differently around them, when compared to how I behave around my friends or my parents. And this is the ego.

Yeah man you're right about me not going out enough times. I'm on a course for this week and next week at a college so that is giving me loads of people to interact with. Just interacting with new people everyday certainly gives you the enthusiasm to go interacting with new people the next day.
I'm seeing improvements right now but I know everything isn't a quick fix, it takes time and effort; like anything does if you want it to last.

That's an interesting realisation. I find it hard to express myself around women that I consider very attractive and I definitely feel some AA before approaching. I never considered it to be the ego. Yet it sounds very plausible, the sense of ones own self importance and self esteem lowers