Pushing myself & dealing with anxiety

[markuk]

Well since my first post I've been trying hard to make a change to my life and improve my happiness.

I've read the game and listened to Tyler's blue print and feel I can take knowledge from both of these sources.

As I live in a crap town I don't really get out during the week however I've been pushing myself on weekends.

Last Friday I went out with NewJackSwagger from this forum in Leicester square. Initially we just approached random women asking for a lighter and fictitious pubs. I asked one girl where the blue dragon was and she proceeded to tell us how good it was and it was just up the road. Maybe she was just freaked out by us. Who knows?

We then met up with Joey (on forum) and his mate Lek and went into TigerTiger. Joey really seemed to have no AA and opened lots of sets.
I didn't open any sets and felt really anxious but I really had pushed myself being somewhere with lots of hot girls so it was a good start. I should also say I wasn't drinking.

This Friday just gone I met up with NewJackSwagger at his pad and drank some beers and stuff which was 40%. So I was pretty tipsy. This made a difference because I didn't give a fuck. We approached lots of girls just walking around and enjoyed friendly banter.


We then got two girls to go into Zoo nightclub with us (surprising how easy it was). NewJackSwagger started pulling some crazy dance moves and I joined in for the most part it felt great acting without caring what other people thought. There were two blonde hb9's on the dance floor with a group of guys. NewJackSwagger did his crazy dancing and high fived the whole group (guys including) One of the guys approached me and said "That's Jenny & Sarah, if you remember their names, you're in" I was blown away that they were trying to set me up and based on my friends crazy dance moves and high fives. I asked their names and chatted for a while before I went off with NewJackSwagger thinking there is an abundance of women here the blondes can wait.

Anyway didn't see the blondes again but spoke for a few other girls.
On the way back we started talking to two Lithuanian girls in the outside smoking area of revolutions (i think). I really felt attrached to the blonde girl but I didn't ask for her number.

Okay a pretty crap field report compared to some of the insane ones on here but it's a big improvement for me where i was a few weeks ago. I want to get out and be more social in general and just have a good time. I want to improve my inner game more than anything and get some make outs. That would be awesome.

So if anyone else has general anxiety I hope you feel encouraged to get out and force yourself to change. I honestly believe the more I face my anxiety head on the more it will go.

PS I'm out next Saturday in London sarging with NewJackSwagger if anyone is at a similar level or just wants to have some fun.


Mark

[Blanca]

Sounds like you had a wicked night Mark, well done for getting stuck in and smashing those barriers. Don't worry that you didn't get any closes, these will start to come the more you go out and hone your game.

You touched upon the key things to take away here - being yourself without giving a fuck, having fun and having interactions with people. Get that down and the rest will follow.