Lol. Why waste your time?


Peace,

kowalski

I'm tempted to take acid and DMT. Cos I always did rather enjoy hallucinating.

I've got this cute 18 year old friend who told me she'd let me know if she gets her hands on DMT. She's into her amphetamines & shit so she's mad looking to try it too.

She said she'd be up for us taking it together. So I've imagined us smoking it, travelling to the other universe, talking afterwards about our little trip to the other universe, dropping acid, tripping some more, then fucking.

I might be just fantasizing though. However, it's not an impossibility.

I fully accept what you say - we all take drugs be it caffeine, alcohol or nicotine. And they're the 3 of the most addictive.

I did however, manage to quit taking amphetamines and psychedelics. They were hurting me, and I had to stop.

So, I did that.

So I went to St John's for a few days and it was really awesome. It's an easy town with laid back vibe but also has the most amount of bars per person in North America.

For me 2 things of note happened there.

Recently I have been working on my eye contact, making more intense "sexual" eye contact and just using it to see who is attracted to me.
My first night out I was walking down the street with some other people from the Air BnB and there was this tall, dark haired and attractive 40 year old walking down the street with another couple. We made the most intense eye contact which caused us both to stop, turn around and talk. I feel that if we hadn't been with other people pulling us on, it would have turned into one of the most intense kisses I'd ever had...

Secondly, we'd just left a club and were just chatting away outside when I saw from behind a girl with an interesting team hoodie. As I went to ask her about it and I saw her face and eyes, it stopped me mid-coversation as she had an insane twinkle about them. I told her this instead of continuing my question to which she immediately covered them and asked me what colour they were. I got it right and we chatted, exchanged numbers as I had to carry one of my new friends home. Co-incidentally she was an air hostess from Montreal so we promised to have drinks back home.
90mins later I get a text asking me over to her place despite having no real sexual contact.

Bonus non-pickup story:
We were walking back from the bar one night and decided to go sit on the dock. We ignored the no entry signs and hopped the fence. 10 mins later 2 RCMP (federal police) come screeching up. Fortunately Mounties in Newfoundland are nice to drunk idiots and gave us a ride home as we were obviously harmless.

I finally bit the bullet and did a stand up set on an open mic night.

For a first time it went really well and I got a good few laughs and some ideas where I need to brush up on my material and delivery.
My favourite was a laugh-gasp response to a risque joke about the Royal Family.

I'm definitely going to do it again as and when it pleases me.

I'm not bigging myself or any of that shit but I'm quite a funny cunt in general, so I wonder how I'd do at a stand up gig.

But then again nobody's ever gunna be funnier than Kevin Bridges. So i'll just go back to drinking my wine here.

I enjoy having a joke but I found it very different to being on stage. Most places require original material so you have to write your own jokes or tell stories with a punchline/climax.

I'd recommending trying some improv or definitely going and watching an open mike night or 2 and giving it a go.

You have my total respect, man.

I have such a yearning to do that.

3 whys that I need to address. 1. Whenever I plan I never group doing stand up in with the stuff I put deadlines and demands on. So it just sits there. 2. Sometimes I sit to write comedy or take a quick note of something funny, generally on reading it back I hate it (this has started to change recently as I've been writing a lot of fiction the past year). 3. I totally fear eating dick up there and know that is pretty much par for the course, everyone sucks in the beginning and even when they're accomplished they still have off nights (much like hitting on girls).

Now I also have an excuse; being here I would have to do it in Spanish.

Though, I remember there was an oriental kid that would go to the open mic in frog and bucket Manchester every week. His English was awful and he would get some laughs just for the absurdity of his whole thing. When you kept seeing him each week though it became hilarious.

I did improv a lot but with improv the audience know you are improvising and are almost always 100% on your side. They get that some things just won't work and others will.

Before leaving Manchester I started to make arrangements for a story night like the Ari Shafir This isn't happening shows because that would be like a halfway between improv and standup. You aren't improvising but neither is it standup. The audience are expecting great stories, well told, seasoned with laughs here and there.

I have no excuses just fears.


Peace,

kowalski

I think I had exactly the same 3 points that kept going through my head and it wasn't until a friend said to me "hey you keep saying that you're gonna do it, when?" and I didn't want to keep lying to myself about doing what I wanted to do.

The eating dick on stage made the first 2 other points appear a lot bigger.

After not completely eating dick (on stage) I'd like to try it once a month where life permits.

So it's been 3 months since I last posted, the main reason being it's our crazy season at work and I not a lot happens outside of work which I'm ok with as it gives me 2.5 months elsewhere per year.

With work, HP who make some of our equipment have started ranking their customers anonymously in that I can see our position but not the names of the others. This ranking has placed me consistently as one of the top performers in the World, North America and by far the best in Canada.
This has got me noticed all the way to the top of our company and within HP and other related companies nearby (other printers and manufacturers of paper, equipment, resources etc.)
It also got me a little payrise and involved in some international conferences next year with the possibility of presenting. I'm keeping my finger on the pulse and I'm starting to look at transitioning to something bigger and better in the next 6-9 months.

Not much news on girls, the 2 FWBs that I've been seeing the past few months have been fun and it's been rather on my terms which is something I had struggled with. One of them started to feel like it was developing more into a relationship and I neither want one or the drama it brings so I'll see how that goes in the next week.

We had our work Christmas Party where we have 3 parts to our company. I spent the night being hit on my middle aged quebecoise women who like that I'm British and my reputation within the company. Most of my working relationships feel better for it and I think that should I wish to pursue one or 2 of the younger women, it would probably be reciprocated