[quote=dan300;126927]It's funny you use this term, because I used to be a pretty trash human back when I was addicted to amphetamines, and over a period of 7 or 8 years life had went from reasonably decent to absolute shit. But I turned it around and have taken myself to a place I never would have thought possible, particularly when the alternative was very likely going to be the graveyard.

you should definitely give amphetamines another go, I know you'd like to think it adds a dimension of wisdom to your otherwise meaningless life, but you think of taking them everyday, you should do it, know you want to.