Yes you're a bit

Take no offence, but at 40 aren't you a little old to be getting on like a love-struck teenager, about a girl who's 13 years your junior?

This post almost reminds me of the reason I initially came on this forum. I was in a similar situation, more complex than yours but the bottom line is I know how it can feel to be cut up over that one girl. But time, massive action in terms of self-improvement, and a lot more girls makes it all better eventually.

I did however, pack my shit up and moved 50 miles away. So you might want to consider that. Best thing I've ever done.