Achieving 30 lays by the age of 30
 

Hi guys, I'm 28 1/2 years old and I need to learn to pickup chicks from day game urgently.

This is going to be a long post as I need to explain 12 years of history for it to make sense.

Somehow I found out through day gaming through Youtube and since then have been fascinated by the idea.

I say day game because I've never "been out" at night as I don't want to join in the distasteful rat race of competing with other males who are high on alcohol, testosterone and misplaced bravado.

That was my view at 18 anyway, needless to say I was insecure about my masculinity back then.

Unfortunately, this slightly arrogant view has left me high and dry when it comes to picking up chicks.

Although I still do kinda feel like that, I'm a day time person and I'm not going to put my health on the line for women.

From the age of 13-25 I'd never even touched a woman's naked breast. From 25 on wards and sick of no female contact I must admit I've had sexual and oral intercourse with 14 prostitutes. Which averages about 1/2 hour with a woman every 4 months over the last few years.

There are reasons for this which I'll explain below.

Firstly, I went to a special needs autistic boarding school, although I am far from severely autistic. I was diagnosed with something called "Asperger's syndrome" which I believe might have been a mistake now as a lot of my "symptoms" actually fit more closely with social anxiety.

The upshot of this is that when I left the school at age 16 in 2006 desperate for sex.

This one chavy girl said she was 16 and would suck me off but then said she was actually 15 and tried to make me feel bad about it and called me a pedo and her mates then tried to beat me up and make me feel bad which affected my trust in women somewhat.

But mainly I thought "being myself" was wrong and something that had to be suppressed, so I never expressed myself with the ladies for fear of my behaviour being seen as a result of my "condition".

I went to the local youth club and had a few bad experiences which I believed was as a result of my "condition" again, but with hindsight I realise I was just being bullied/ridiculed because I was a kid then essentially just appeared from nowhere instead of attending a local school. The other youths all seemed to know each other from school but I had just "appeared".

There was this really pretty girl I was in love with and attended the youth club for 2 1/4 years and made an attempt to approach her in 2008 but someone interrupted me and I didn't want anyone to witness the approach in case it went wrong.

She was also 2 years younger than me and I was afraid that I might get seen as a pedo again and beaten up by the chavs.

I was extremely "in my head" my whole youth between 2005-2015, hunched over the computer, lights off, on internet forums, burying myself in video games, designing levels for games and basically suppressing my burning desire for female contact. Sometimes I would be masturbating up to 7 times a day. Extremely unhealthy.

I was convinced women where just "not for me" and everybody else, no matter how ugly they were could get women but I just wasn't meant to.

I went through self pity, feeling entitled and wondering why it never happened for me.

People told me that I would get a girlfriend, but it just wasn't happening.

During uni and my loneliest days ever between 2011-12 I also got addicted to female autopsy videos as they turned me on more than any porn ever could. Just seeing a naked woman's body being cut up was sheer ecstasy to me for some reason.

Those were my darkest days actually. I'd gone beyond desperation into complete madness. I also worried that I might actually be a paedophile for some crazy reason which was a fear that lasted throughout my whole early 20s.

My self esteem was in the gutter. I couldn't even look people in the face for the fear that they might see the turmoil going on in my head.

Basically only "living" in an unapologetic way since 2016 when I started riding motorcycles.

So I have only started living my life from my mid 20s onwards, now I am in my late 20s I want to live like I am in my late teens instead.

I am particularly interested in girls aged 18-22 as I know this is the age group that I did not take advantage of when I was in it and I won't have long until I will look very suspect indeed for approaching women of that age.

My goal is to have sex with 30 different women by the age of 30 which is 18 months time. Bear in mind I'm starting from 0 as prostitutes don't count.

It is going to be a massive learning curve.

I am currently at the level where going up to a chick, paying a compliment is stressful and I often eject after a few words and can't seem to get them to hook.

I tried online dating last year and got nowhere with it, I just can't take it seriously, I'd rather live in the moment anyway and take the risk to get the reward.

So yeah, 30 by 30, achievable or fantasy?

Fantasy, considering the fact you're 28.5 and have very, very little experience in even talking to women. It's like me asking is it possible for me to be a millionaire by the end of next year. Impossible unless my lotto numbers come up.

You'd be better setting smaller, achievable goals, rather than obscenely unattainable ones. For example, getting to the point of talking to a girl comfortably enough to ask for her number.

Good point dan300.

They are baby steps and are necessary.

No I'm not a serial killer, I was just depressed and lacked real life female contact.

But it does turn me on a bit, I have to say.

But I wouldn't wish harm on a woman, it's just when there has been a tragedy and the body is still intact, you might as well...you know:trampoline:

At the moment it's like there is a timer that goes off as soon as I pay the compliment and I have to get out of there before the times up

All I have to go off is what you've written so far on the forum, but to me it seems like there is more going on with you than simple social anxiety. I hope you are still involved in some proven therapeutic process.


Peace,

kowalski

I have seeked counselling and may well be taking that up.

I think in a lot of ways what is going on is due to 12 years of isolation.

I know I'll never be 18 again and it's a reality that has hit me quite hard.

I still can't believe it was 10 years ago. Like what was I doing that whole time!?

Jobs never came my way, part time crappy supermarket jobs, I might as well have not gone to uni, complete waste of life.

There are a lot of things mixed up making me feel how I do.

I feel like I could have been and done much more in life.

A lot of people my age are really settling down and I've no interest in that.

I'm nearly 30 and I've only had sex 17 times since I was 25 FFS.

I just want to have abundance and regular sex and blowjobs for a few years.

I want to feel a woman's saliva on my cock on a regular basis.

I've had enough of wanking off to a screen, in fact that defines my whole "sex life" up until I gave up waiting and started with prostitutes.

I want to change my whole life around. I just want a woman that I can bang until I'm satisfied instead of only being allowed to cum once.

You are definitely weird in a bad way, in a potential menace to yourself and others way, and you definitely need help to stop being weird before you do anything else.


Peace,

kowalski

What do you base this on?

I am not going anywhere so you'd better buck up your ideas son...

Ten years ago, ironically, I was a lot more normal.

10 years of isolation has had it's effect, granted.

But if someone said that to me 10 years ago, I'd have taken it to heart, backed down and gone back into my shell. Although ironically 10 years ago I had not watched any autopsy videos, so I didn't really have anything to feel bad about.

I don't give a fuck if people judge me now.

I just come out swinging and eliminate dead weights slowing me down.

Don't know how to back down only hold my ground.

I'll be a potential menace to you, definitely:mad:

I already stated what I'm basing it on.


Peace,

kowalski

My god you think you are so clever:mad:

You're just a bully

I know I'm clever. Since reaching a reasonable level of maturity I've almost always been the cleverest person in any given room I've entered.

You though... you need serious professional help. Anyone here with integrity will tell you the same.


Peace,

kowalski