I have seeked counselling and may well be taking that up.

I think in a lot of ways what is going on is due to 12 years of isolation.

I know I'll never be 18 again and it's a reality that has hit me quite hard.

I still can't believe it was 10 years ago. Like what was I doing that whole time!?

Jobs never came my way, part time crappy supermarket jobs, I might as well have not gone to uni, complete waste of life.

There are a lot of things mixed up making me feel how I do.

I feel like I could have been and done much more in life.

A lot of people my age are really settling down and I've no interest in that.

I'm nearly 30 and I've only had sex 17 times since I was 25 FFS.

I just want to have abundance and regular sex and blowjobs for a few years.

I want to feel a woman's saliva on my cock on a regular basis.

I've had enough of wanking off to a screen, in fact that defines my whole "sex life" up until I gave up waiting and started with prostitutes.

I want to change my whole life around. I just want a woman that I can bang until I'm satisfied instead of only being allowed to cum once.